I’ve suspected that I’m inherently poly for most of my life, Chris. I’m
fairly sure my father was. He had a very difficult time with fidelity
within his marriage. Unfortunately, the primary way that I’ve chosen to
deal with sexuality up to this point, aside from a single partner five
years ago, has been to deliberately get fat and remain celibate, as a means
of avoiding it. I’ve been feeling lately that sex is something I need to
Thanks for sharing vulnerably. I had a similar father. Reading the book
“Sex at Dawn” clarifies why monogamy is a forced fit. Why have you been
avoiding your sexuality?
I had an autistic diagnosis at 16; and although in hindsight I had positive
advanced from a number of girls during high school and later, my ability to
recognise them and know how to respond in the moment remains poor. I also
have a relative who is a convicted paedophile, and I suspect I’m probably
carrying around a large amount of secondary guilt relating to that
incident. I will look into that book you mentioned.
I’ve also, now that I think about it, been exposed to some extremely
puritannical material concerning sex. Ironically, in my own case it hasn’t
so much come from Christianity, but from the reading I’ve done into more
conservative areas of Vedanta, or Hinduism. Hindu orthodoxy places a very
strong emphasis on brahmacharya, which involves the complete expulsion of
sex from human life, even in purely mental terms.
Thanks for sharing. If I’m interpreting correctly it sounds like you’d
enjoy getting healthy, taking chances with women, releasing any residual
guilt for someone else’s actions, and letting go of anti-sex dogma.
That is correct. I found a pdf of the book Sex at Dawn, and I’m reading it.
I’ve also recently found a lot of material on the Gerson juice diet, and
I’m soon going to be buying a food processor so I can start migrating to
it. I’ve got a long way to go, but I think I’ll get there. Thank you for
You’re welcome. Enjoy the journey to yourself.
straight to favorites thanks bro:)
Thanks…I’m glad to hear you enjoyed it.
“If you love a flower, don’t pick it up.
Because if you pick it up it dies and it ceases to be what you love.
So if you love a flower, let it be.
Love is not about possession.
Love is about appreciation.” -Osho
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